It has been a rather tumultuous time for us lately (great British understatement!) Hence the lack of a post last month.
Last June, a brush with Covid highlighted pre-burn out and how I really had to set boundaries and curtail my activities, even though it was the very last thing I wanted to do.
Since then, things took a nosedive, til, at the end of January, things came to a head. I have for many years, felt that I had discovered the very bottom of the barrel, however, each time, something new would come along to make me realise that no, actually, life could get worse. I’ve been pushed to the absolute limit in terms of what I could take physically, mentally and emotionally.
On my birthday (as it happened), I finally reached the end of what had been a very long rope! Less than 24 hours later, the pressure lifted and with it the circumstances that had been causing so much trauma. Yay! – except I was pretty much on the floor energetically speaking. Thinking was done through a fog. Trying to cope with simple tasks could throw me into tailspin – and as for doing two things at once…! This, despite the fact that I am, and have been, an excellent plate spinner – occasionally while doing the tango at the same time! 😉
So – when, quite by chance I came across an opportunity to attend a short course of webinars to learn a new healing modality, the obvious answer to that would be – forget it! Or would it? Because, you see, I wasn’t (given that I’m not quite that stupid) looking for that at the moment. The healing modality had been on my radar for a while, but I hadn’t felt drawn to explore it. Until now, that is.
Given the bonkers timing it seemed logical to draw up a list of questions to ask myself. Like:
- Have I gone mad? (good opener!)
- What makes me think I’ll be able to have the brain power and focus to take it in?
- Am I just looking to ‘collect’ another healing modality; learning for the sake of learning?
- Can I afford the time and money?
- Shouldn’t I wait and see if the opportunity comes up again at a more convenient time?
By the next morning, however, I was suddenly very clear that this course was drawing me like a magnet. Forget the dos and don’ts, the shoulds and should nots. My instinct was telling me in no uncertain terms that this was something I needed to do. Now. Not at an unspecified future time.
I’ve had a lot of experience of listening to my intuition so I know when it’s yelling at me. Hence, I signed up.
So, what happened? Did I fall over? Could I possibility fit anything more into my overcrowded head? Well, yes, as it turns out. The course was exactly what I needed – needed to know and needed to do. Perfect! But at the maddest time imaginable for me, personally. Which brings me to my point.
Logic and common sense are great. Thinking before you act can be important, but there are times when you have to do the wild thing (no – not THAT wild thing!) 😉 even though it might seem ridiculous.
Our brains are very clever and they’re used to being in charge but they don’t know everything. So, at the end of the day, don’t assume that what looks good on paper will be good in real life, or, that just because something was true once it will be true again.
Circumstances change, people change, energies fluctuate. Even what your body needs, or can tolerate, in regard to food and drink can change daily. So, it’s always wise to check in with the part of you that might know things your brain doesn’t. And if that intuitive knowing seems ridiculous, then question it by all means, but let it have its say, because sometimes the thing you least expect is exactly what you need.